I just want to say that I have this, like, three-year crush on the same waitress at the only place I ever go to eat.

She's sort of the walking prototype for Girls I Want To Marry. She has ever-changing weirdo hair, a perfect smile, big fat pillow lips, and she's The Funny Girl. She's one of those people that found the magical combination between spunky tomboy and femme. She's not some little petite thing. She has an actual, physical presence and imperfections. She is super friendly and accommodating and knows me indirectly through a friend. She and I have spoken and always have our cordial greeting, since I'm also a regular.

And she's straight. Not, like, maybe bi-curious, but Queer-friendly-with-many-queer-friends-and-is-totally-positive-that-she-isn't-attracted-to-women, but in that way where's she's just being really sincere and kind, and not secretly terrified of being a fag.  She has no idea I think she's my soul-mate. Her boyfriend lives somewhere else, but he's pretty awesome so I kind of support her being with him if she has to be with anyone that isn't me.

Anyway. Everyone else here always has a crush, so I thought I should declare that I have one too.

Ok so my gf and i were having a conversation, who is the weirdest person you have a crush on?

Current Mood: giggly

Alright, so since I've done an Introdction post I think I'll address some of the things I vague mentioned there. Elaborate.

I said that I was single but I did have a love interest. It's a sort of unrequited love thing.

Amanda is my best friend. We've been so close for almost two years now. She knows me best, understands me, is most aware of my moods and how to handle me, depending. I've never been so close to anyone as I have been with her. But suddenly, in less than a month, it seems like we've lost touch.

There's a bit of back story to this relationship. The short version would be that, for as long as I've known her, she's had a serious crush on me. For the majority of our friendship, I was oblivious. And when I did know about it, I didn't think I returned the feelings. I finally was coming to terms with my sexuality and also realized that I had some serious strong feelings for her. But she was dating a guy at the time and she wasn't willing to leave him for me. When they broke up, things were awkward between us. She knew what I wanted and I was afraid to ask for it. I've only ever been with one other girl and it didn't last very long before I called it off, so I didn't know how to go about the whole ordeal. I suppose I waited to long, because when I finally brought it up, she told me she didn't really like me anymore. She said she'd let go.

I was crushed, but at the same time, I told myself that it was what I deserved. It had taken me so long to return the feelings that it made sense that after almost two years, she had finally decided that it wasn't worth it.

But that's not the only thing. This entire summer, she has hardly talked to me. She's been in summer school, so that would be a reason why she can't spend much time with friends, but she doesn't seem to make any effort to see me. And then, to make me feel worse, she text me to let me know that she was going out to hang with my ex-girlfriend... and wouldn't give me any straight answer when I asked about it. I feel like, not only have I lost her as a potential lover (which I'm trying to deal with) but that I'm losing her friendship.

If only I could be assured that our friendship is still as strong as ever, I could handle the fact that the romance I wished for won't happen.

I haven't really spoken to her since she texted me about my ex. We had a brief online conversation, but I was... I suppose you could say I was being a bitch. I would take for ever to reply to her and then it would only be with one word replies. I don't think she realizes that I'm upset with her, that I've been sort of ignoring her. I think that bothers me more than anything. The fact that she isn't aware of how I feel. But I don't know what to do about this. I can't look at any pictures of her, especially if I'm in the photo with her, without feeling a sharp pain in my chest. I'm always wondering to myself about school and when I touch on thoughts of Amanda I immediately back away, steering clear of anything that has to do with her. I can hardly even talk about anything with my other friends if Amanda was involved in the story. It's becoming really pathetic, honestly. Today was her last day of summer school, meaning that she'll be free to do things with friends after today. I have no idea...

I hope this post makes sense. I'm not entirely sure if it did or not.

Eh... I feel like including a picture of the two of us...
( Ria&Amanda )

Current Mood: confused

I was just recently accepted here. Introduction?

My name is Ria. Certain friends call me Sunshine or Alice, though.

My favourite colour is Yellow and my fave flower is daisy. I'm a very upbeat person and I hate dealing with drama, even though it still happens.

I'm single. But not without a love interest. But that's its own separate post.

I'm... half out. Another post to explain that one.

I'm a very loyal person, despite how bitchy I can be sometimes. My friends are the most important people to me. I say that I don't make a habit of lying to people. I prefer to be as honest as possible.

I'll end with some pictures. If you want to know anything else, just comment and ask. I'm an open person and there isn't any question I won't try to answer.

( QT )

Current Mood: cheerful

 Hi everyone,

Guess what? I'm single. Officially...reallly...I really am! I realize, we're both not the people we thought we were. The other day she had me on the floor...crying like I've never cried before. Because, don't get me wrong I still love her and I think I laways will. That's why I was crying...because I was losing her. But it's better in the end. I wouldn't want to be with her anyway. It's a toxic relationship. But, I'm OK. I'll be OK because I've lost nothing but her and I've kind of realized after everything we've been through, it's not that much. So tell me, does anyone here live in MONTREAL?

 Ok, so now that i have made my introductions (previous post) i want to know has anyone had any problems being accepted after they came out?  I haven't had an easy time with my family and could do with some advice on how to deal with this?

Current Mood: anxious

Ten things I love about me.

1. I love how I won't go down without a fight, when able.
2. I love it when I write something, and feel really good about it.
3. I love how everyone else says I'm talented and creative, and I think they're full of crap! LOL!
4. I love experiencing new things with my girlfriend. Mostly food, as she said below. I also love how I am willing to try almost anything once! <3
5. I love fantasy movies and books..and Chuck Palahniuk!
6. I love how I get horny when listening to industrial music. NIN, Marilyn Manson, Dope, Celldweller....omfg&haha.
7. I love how I can make a meal out of almost anything. Ask Jess (strataangel).
8. I love how I can't find anything when my room is clean, but if it's destroyed? That's when I know where everything is.
9. I love how I hate raw tomatoes, but can eat them cooked.
10. I LOVE petting my gf. Period. I love running my hands over her belly, and squealing excitedly about it. o__o; <---I'm a dork.

Ten things I love about my GF!

1. I love the way she talks to me in her sleep when I am awake.
2. I love that she can make me angrier than anyone else in the world, but then she pouts, and damnit - I'm screwed. Defused. o__o;
3. I love her body. Small breasts, cute little butt, and her BELLY. OMG, I love her belly. >>
4. I love how she understands me, and never judges me.
5. I love her nerves of steel. >> I am NOT easy to get along with.
6. I love how she laughs until she cries. ;)
7. I love how she stalks me around the house, even if i'm in the bathroom. At the moment, I am like WTF, then I can't help but laugh because I know she just wants to be near me.
8. I love the sound of her voice, even when she sings. She can't sing. I still love to hear her try. T_T
9. I love how she squeals because it tickles when I trail my nails up the back of her legs.
10. And finally, I love how if I am sleeping, and she has come over to visit...she glomps me. Latches on and rolls me around until I wake up laughing.

Current Mood: chipper

Hi everyone, i just got accepted to this community!
I'm Charli, i'm 25 and from the UK, for some reason i felt really quite nervous posting here but here i am so hope everyone is ok! I would love to chat xxx

Current Mood: cheerful

hey here all, i've never posted here before, but i thought i would now.


i'm living in Buffalo NY and i was wondering if there was anyone from that same area. i dont have any lesbian friends at all really, and i would like to meet some. also a plus if they're in the same region!  

ok.. so i dont really know what else to say here, so i'll say goodnight!
hope to hear from ya! 

... who's been sleeping with her girlfriend six months.

Current Mood: desperate

Have you ever met someone and just felt incredibly comfortable with them almost instantly? 
I have found that quite recently and I like it. I really do.

Current Mood: ecstatic

So I was listening to DC 101 (it's a rock station in the DC area) and the DJ, Travis, was talking to this one caller about the new Linkin Park song. The caller was saying how it sounded like something Jesse McCartney would put out. Travis proceeded to play the song "Beautiful Soul" and sang along, but instead of singing the actual lyrics he just sang over and over "I'm so gay, gay, gay, gay, gay, gay." I think that was pretty offensive. One of my friends said I was being overly sensitive. What do you all think? Am I being overly sensitive or was what he said unacceptable? Or is it somewhere in between the two?

Current Mood: tired

My girlfriend Julie is participating in the 3 day Breast Cancer Walk, which is a being held in Chicago and a thirteen cities across the US this year.

Julie will walk 20 miles on Friday while most of us are working, she will walk 20 miles on Saturday while most of us are running errands or enjoying the day at our leisure, and on Sunday she will walk 20 miles while most of us are relaxing and spending time with loved ones.

I'm proud to say that this weekend, August 8th-10th, my girlfriend Julie will walk 60 miles in 3 days for the women who are fighting for their lives against breast cancer while the rest of us are hoping for a cure.

Please consider donating to this heroic cause for the people in your life who have been affected by breast cancer and for the people who will be affected if this disease isn't cured.

Please visit her donation page by clicking on the image below:

does any have UFLO uploaded on sendspace, megaupload etc...
I cant find it on soulseek or limewire... for some reason.
My old computer crashed and this is their only album i Have not been able to find it anywhere.

Hi everybody! Here are some icons I made from shots of The Con DVD. Enjoy!

Preview:


( Like T, Like S )

Current Mood: hyper

new here... thought i would do the whole "ten things"... thing. did it more as a ten things about me rather than ten things i like about myself...

( it goes up to 11...(insert spinal tap reference here) )

Looking for the song "Ooh La" by The Kooks.

Also, any Lily Allen that you all might have would be greatly appreciated.


Tia!

Current Mood: bored

Do you like going down on a girl? 

Some of you may have been wondering where I've been for the past week. (If you haven't, I'll get over it.)

( Cut for length, pictures and nudity )